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Grizzly Weinstein
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April 2009
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Grizzly Weinstein [userpic]
Burnout?

I made a commitment with myself about a week or so ago to start getting things done. Partly to accomplish important things that are piling up and partly to prove that I could. I was doing great, I even started getting up early and getting to work via bus by 8:30 this week.
One of the things I wanted to get accomplished yesterday was paying my car tabs (well before they were due). When I was just outside the dock gate I realized I had forgotten my tabs. This is where I usually fail, not that I forget things; but that when I remember them I do not act. It literally would take 30 seconds for me to go back in and get the tab renewal information. At first I decided not to bother, this is usually how it happens. On a good day I fight with myself a little bit about how easy it is to just go back and get it. Yesterday, after telling myself to blow it off, I said, "this is not how I get things done, is there something else I wanted to do of equal importance instead? No? Go back inside". So I went it in got it. Strange that after I had the renewal notice, it seemed like a big victory, something so small. But it felt good. It felt really good when I paid it at work (online, very easy).
Today I brought my long distance bill. Today I think I suffered burn out. I overslept by a few hours. I got nothing whatsoever accomplished today, neither personal life or work. I feel very tired and have a head-ache, maybe I am egitimately sick; but I think I might have just burned out a little bit.
It is too bad Autumn is my season, it feels so full of energy. All the wind blowing things around and the air thinner and easier to breathe. I thought I could use it and the normal Autumn energy I always feel to recharge. Maybe I still can; 2 steps forward, 1 step back.

Off to Flamenco lessons.

Current Mood: Decharged
Comments

hey, Small/Big Victory Man,

you did expereince a victory. Celebrate your victories... don't expect them every single day.. but just revel in them when they happen.
keep taking steps.
I'm proud of you.
You the man....

I agree. You the man!!!

Hey, there's no reason to beat yourself up. Everyone needs a day off once in a while. Especially when adopting a new habit. I know, I've made a similar commitment to getting a handle on my finances, but the resistance has been huge. So I just chip away at it a little at a time.

Just Do It

"Man is a creature of habit", they say, and so it is.
One of the things that has been helping me greatly is using
'slogans', sayings and mottos when I am 'on the fence' about
doing a thing or not. One of them is: "Dreadin' it, is worse than
doin' it!" Another is: "Ain't nothin' to it, but to do it!"
And then I often say to myself, "If not *now*, when? If not
*me*, who?" And perhaps on a 'higher' level...."Do it *Now*,
while The Spirit moves you!" Having used these motivators or
affirmations for years now, they have become to some degree
imbedded in my subconscious mind and when I find myself
as you did, 'standing outside the gate' and pondering whether or
not I should actually do something or slough it off, or put it off
'til later'.....I often hit myself with one or more of these sayings,
and I 'catch myself in the act', as you did, and I turn around and
go and do what I should do and achive that little victory!
It's just like so much else in life.....it's all a question of Balance.
Self discipline is a good thing, but as one sage has said, "Have a
healthy self discipline, but be kind to yourself."

Thought for the day: "The Now Moment is the pivot point for all eternity

You've done well and will get your second(third, fourth, etc) wind. You were up at the crack of butt today!
I am proud of you beautiful and your motivation to do these things couldn't have come at a better time.
Keep up the good work because it feels good. Don't beat yourself up over the slack days, it just seems to make them happen more often.